Minsan May Mga Kwento

The lights were faking the moment, I am looking at you and with full serenity you sleep so dearly. Gusto kong sumigaw pero hindi ko mahanap ‘yung boses ko, tinakasan niya na naman yata ako. Kung pwede lang din sanang tumakas sa katawang ‘to, get out of my skin, stay away from my senses and go back to where we started. Sana kaya kong mag-imbento ng time machine…

I – Best People

In life, we tend to come into different levels of realizations, different moments na may iba’t-ibang intensities that may put us into various understandings and on my part, ang dami kong realizations, ang dami kong intense moments na aakalain mong all caps ang typing style ng author ng buhay ko. I was all smiles when it comes to things, I keep calm and take things easily. However, nakaka-sama pala ‘yun?

Three days after my eighteenth birthday I lost a friend, well not just a friend, a super ultra mega true friend, her name’s Jane, andami naming naging memories, awww, memories, to think na, talagang memories nalang sila is heartbreaking. Jane died of blood cancer, leukemia to be exact. I never thought she’ll leave us, pero she just did. And to sum up everything, it’s like the world cheated on you, everybody can relate to this, lahat naman tayo nawalan ng mahal sa buhay, and hell, if only in life we have self-destruct buttons, I will hit them all the moment she bid me goodbye.

“Kuya, see ate ang pinaka the best na tao sa whole universe, why does she need to die?” Michael said to me, brother ni Jane.

Grabe, I didn’t know what to say, paano ba dapat sagutin ang mga questions na ganun? But then I told him, “’pag nasa garden ka ba baby ano ‘yung mga flowers na gustong-gusto mong kunin?”

“Syempre ‘yung mga magaganda, all the best ones,” he answered then I smiled at him. 

“Good people die young,” sabi ko.

“No Kuya, you’re wrong, the best people do,” sabat niya sa’kin, ang cute talaga ng batang ‘to.

Do not worry why some people who are big part of your, let us say, uhhhmazing life just go and disappear, kailangan na sila ni God, He needs best people in heaven.

Life has so many things to offer, but it never guarantees you happiness, minsan dadayain ka rin, minsan pagbibigyan ka, but for some reasons whether with a gleaming rainbow or not, you might just have to accept it.

I’ve been so dramatic that I forgot to do what most characters do in a story, like stars, they introduced themselves. By the way with lights and nerve malfunctions I am Pierre, and here is my story filled with best people and high levels of life- sucking, falling, pushing, flying, running and even everything, all at once.

II- Culture, Shirts, and 10 Million Possibilities

“Hi, wala kang kasama?” nagulat ako, some random guy just talked to me, pauwi ako n’un, I mean with my family, pumunta kami sa burial ng lola ko, another best person na kailangan ni God. Nakasakay kami sa barge kasi dala naming ‘yung sasakyan namin. I was so bored, it’s 2am so I tried to roam around, umupo ako sa isang vacant bench. Tinignan ko ‘yung magsing-gilid ko to know if may iba siyang gustong kausapin but then wala, it’s only me and him. I smiled, sabi ko, “mukha bang meron?” nag-smile lang din siya. With all honesty ang pogi niya, HAHA. Oh sige ako na-honest. I took moment to look at him and recognize his face pero hindi ko talaga siya kilala, random nga diba? He has this, cute dimple on his left cheek, tapos his teeth are just glorious, pantay-pantay sila, nakakahiya tuloy mag-smile sa part ko, HAHA, he has this, hazel eyes na ang sarap titigan, ‘pag sinabi niya sigurong triangle ‘yung buwan maniniwala ako. Goodness, and landi ko, ang gay naman masyado.

“Wala nga,” sabi niya, “bagot na bagot na kasi ako, buraot dito sa barko, pwede kang maka-usap to kill some time?” tugon niya pa. Dahil din sa bored din naman ako, obviously kanina pa, tumango ako.

We talked about things, andami niyang sinabi, puro ako tango, na-mesmerized ba ako sa kanya or speechless lang ako kasi ang ganda ng ngipin niya?

“You know what, it feels like I’m talking to some old friend, it’s like I knew from a different lifetime, a different place, nagkita na ba tayo?” I asked, maka-daldal kasi siya parang ang close-close namin eh halos five minutes palang kami nag-uusap.

“Do you believe in reincarnation?” okay, hindi niya sinagot ‘yung tanong ko, instead he placed another question.

“Ako, hindi ko alam, to live again, as in, mabuhay and turn into a different person or thing, ewan ko, I don’t know if I will believe,” sagot ko.

“That’s the thing about us humans, we don’t usually believe on things, unless it happens to us,” sabi niya, okay one point for weird.

“Ikaw ba, do you?” pagbalik ko ng tanong sa kanya.

“Maraming magic ang universe, at kung marunong lang tayong mag-notice at manood, maiisip mo na everything is possible, look ngayon nakasakay tayo sa barko, if I drop a coin into the water lulubog siya, but how come that this big, huge thing floats? Eh billion times naman ang laki niya sa coin, probably sasabihin mo, its buoyancy and other laws of Physics or whatever, but to me, it’s a way of the universe to tell us that there are possibilities,” sabi niya.

“Okay, pero anong connect n’un sa reincarnation?” tanong ko.

“Possibility,” he uttered then smiled. “It’s possible na reincarnation happens, that you were a different thing walking on earth a long time ago, who knows isa pala akong dinosaur noong unang panahon and you were some prey I ate, or it could be the other way around, possibilities,” sabi niya pa.

“Possibility,” sabi ko sabay tango. “So it’s possible na lumubog tayo today or hindi kita naka-usap?” I uttered.

“Exactly,” he blurted. “And I’m off to look for those 10 million possibilities,” sabi niya uli.

“Huh? 10 million?” I asked curiously, “Yep, I think that’s my purpose, I’m bound to look for those,” sabi niya.

“Possible ba yun?” tanong ko. “Nakikinig ka ba sa’kin? Syempre, to know that it’s possible is one of those 10 millions,” sabi niya.

“Oo na, ikaw positive sa buhay,” I uttered, he smiled.

“Teka iihi lang ako,” sabi ko tapos tumayo papunta sa CR, pag labas ko, bumababa na ang mga pasahero, wala na’din siya sa inuupu-an namin kanina. So pumunta nalang ako kela Papa to get my things, habang pababa, I saw his back, alam ko siya ‘yun, posibleng siya yun, kasama niya yata ‘yung Kuya niya, sayang ‘di ko man lang natanong pangalan ni Mr. Posible, nakakatawa rin kase kanina ko pa gustong e-mention na baliktad ‘yung orange t-shirt niya, culture pa tag sa likod, hindi ko masabi-sabi kasi ang daldal niya, HAHA. Well, there’s a possibility na malaman niya, or hindi.